I have a hard time being present. It sounds simple enough: focusing and engaging with the moment in front of you. My biggest distraction there is thinking about what’s down the road, and the consequences of wrong choices. This is pretty much the foundation of my anxiety and a lot of my mental health issues.
This week I had the idea of planning out and sticking to a content schedule; mostly, I wanted to start becoming more organized with my time, and also wanted to lessen the mental load. Projects can seem pretty big until you take the time to get what exact steps you need to do them out […]
The last two weeks have been kind of a roller coaster from positive to negative. I’ve been grinding out games of both Dota and Street Fighter on stream, and with varying degrees of success. Last night I started off the stream in a bad place, as I was playing Dota and quickly fed two kills […]
I think the thing that frustrates me most about learning video games are the panic moments where you know what you should have done, but lack the mental clarity to put them into practice. In a high-pressure situation, I sometimes can’t connect the dots to what I’m seeing and what I need to do to successfully […]
I’ve come to realize I have a little bit of a phobia when it comes to facing certain characters. This usually comes from when they’ve beat me pretty hard in the past, and that kind of carries over to future matches where I think the same thing is going to happen. There’s some commonalities between […]
Like a lot of people starting out with competitive gaming, I’m having some problems with ladder anxiety. For the uninitiated, ladder anxiety happens when you avoid playing ranked (or even unranked) matchmaking due to different reasons. Some people might be hesitant to risk the rank they’ve already earned, or those that are starting out might […]
The last couple days have been an exercise in patience. I’ve decided that I’m going to put more of my effort into improving in two competitive multiplayer games: I’m going to both try to get better at Dota 2 and Street Fighter V.